'dito sea dioooooo!

lol

'Toy quitao y no quiero escribir un carajo sobre eso!
PIRIOD!

Check.

I have been thinking a lot!

And I don't want to think anymore!!!!
Why can't I just live?
You know, like a "normal" being?
Is it because I'm NOT normal? Or because I just think I'm not normal when in fact I am? I'm not sure but it sucks. And since I was on vacation, I had even more time to myself and I don't think that's very good anymore! I might not take vacations at all if it keeps up like this!! hehehehe

Anyway, nothing much to say.
I haven't worked on new material or anything... it's sad... I'm saaaaad... It might not seem like it on the outside but it sure feels like it from the inside...

Byyyyeee.

Sometimes, sometimes...

you try hard, then try harder.
Sometimes, sometimes...
you forget you can go faster.
Sometimes, sometimes...
you pick up the pieces.
Sometimes, sometimes,
it's better to leave them.

More often than not,
you think about giving up.
About not going further,
about leaving it all.

But something calls out,
something transforms you.
You are no longer yourself,
you've built a better you.

And I wish I could make
myself a whole lot better.
I wish my insecurities,
would not take the best of me.

I wish I could do
everything that I've dreamed of.
But sometimes, sometimes...

What did the Tarot and Tao cards told me?!?!?

Well, it's late and I don't want to go into details.
Let's just say that the Tao card that "called" me offered this:

"Attachment to illusion brings suffering... renouncing the illusion brings enlightenment."

Color me surprised!
(I hate it when I cannot say when something is coincidence or just simply the truth!!! :-( )

New Song almost done (2 Posts in 1 Day? WOOT!!!)

Heeeeeelloooooouuuuuu again.

So, I had posted over at Facebook (in my status thingie) that after one hour and a half I had just come up with maybe 20 seconds of usable recorded material. Well, this week I tried to keep on recording and writing because quite frankly I had not done so these past few months (too much work, PS3, movies, etc.) I believe that lyrics are almost done. I'd say they are complete. The music track however needs more work, and forget about vocals... not even breathing/singing lessons will make a decent vocalist out of me :-(

Here are the lyrics to this yet untitled song:

Mi-, La-, Fa+

Sigo esperando la llamada
que me diga: "amor... perdoname!"
Imaginando q te va super mal
y q estas extranandome.

Pero q malo q nada de eso pasa.
Q el q aqui sufre soy yo, solito en casa.

Todo se arregla con una botellita de alcohol
"devorandola".
Pero que pena q borracho no olvido el dolor
sigo queriendola.

Y que malo que no aprendi a olvidar...
Y q malo que nunca me vas a amar.

(rompecorazones..)

Coro.

De que vale por ti llorar. (rompecorazones..)
Para q yo voy a esperar? (rompecorazones..)
A q el phone vuelva a sonar (rompecorazones..)
Ver tu nombre en pantalla brillar... (rompecorazones..)

Asi q.

Puente:

Me concentrare
en ser el mejor y no quererte!
Si vuelvo a beber
es para celebrar q estas ausente.
Fuera de mi vida
fuera de mi todo,
Ya no eres mis dias
no eres mi tesoro.

Coro.

De que vale por ti llorar. (rompecorazones..)
Para q yo voy a esperar? (rompecorazones..)
A q el phone vuelva a sonar (rompecorazones..)
Ver tu nombre en pantalla brillar... (rompecorazones..)

oooh ohhh ohhh ohhh ohhh ohhhhh
oooh oooohh oohhh oohho ohhh ohhhh..


That's it.
It's another pop song, maybe a little more upbeat than others I have posted.
When I record my electric guitar and finish mixing things up, I'll post an mp3 or something.


CHHHECK IT!

Me liking a BACHATA song?!?!

Hehehehehehe
Yeah I know... shame on me! lol
So I was with my cousin not long ago and we were talking music of course, and he goes on to tell me: (this is an updated version for blog purposes! hehehe)

"Remember the day I called you 'cause we were going to be performing in Isabela at Paradise?"

Me: "Yep! How did it go!?"

JL: "We didn't performed there. But is it a good place?"

Me: "I have only gone once... I mean, all there is there is Salsa, Merengue and Bachata and a whole bunch of old ladies trying to ass rape you!!" (hehehehehehe)

JL: "I forgot that you didn't like those genres... especially bachata!"

Me: "I know... although... I did liked one song on the radio the other day."

JL: "Which one was it?"

Me: "Baaahhh... I don't remember... it's something about 2 friends having a discussion of going out with the same woman or something like that!"

** JL Laughs **

Me: "what?"

JL: "Yeah, I sing that song and I wrote it.!"

Me: "Naaa aaahhh. 2 cacos were singing it, Rakim n Ken-Y"

JL: "Yeah I know. But it's my song and I'm the one doing lead vocals"

Me: "Really..?!?!?!"

JL: "yep!"

Me: "Fucking caco!!!!" hehehehehehehe

Anyway, here is the song:

Los Fantásticos
Karis
Con El Magnífico
Ken-Y

[[Karis]]
Amigo Mío llego el momento de hablar frente a frente
Quisiera aclarar estas dudas que llevo en mi mente
Me dicen que hace tiempo te entiendes con ella
Y yo loco de amor y me ahogo en mis pena
Que no quiera ni puedo aceptar que traiciones mi ausencia

[[Ken-Y]]
Amigo Mío es verdad que cuando tu no estas llego yo...(llego yo)
que penetro en su piel y en segundos le borro tus huellas

Que la hago vibrar Sentir bien mujer
que en mis brazos tu niña se vuelve una fiera
que desee que un hombre la ame y la queme de veras

Discúlpame ya se que eres mi amigo
me enamoré son cosas del Destino

[[Karis]]
Dime si tu
ademas de su cuerpo y su piel
puedes ver lo que
yo puede ver...
Su corazón

[[Ken-Y]]
Dime si la quieres
Igual Que Yo
(Igual Que Yo)
(Igual Que Yo)

[[Karis]]
Dime si la amas
también como yo
La Amo Yo
((La Amo Yo))

[[Karis & Ken-Y]]
Dime si la quieres
Igual Que Yo
((Igual Que Yo))
((Igua Que Yo))

[[Ken-Y]]
Dime si tu la deseas
Con El Corazón...

[[Karis]]
Oye Nena estos
Son Los Fantásticos
Te Lo dije

[[Karis]]
Es que mi amigo me es difícil creer que tu seas ese hombre
((Que tu seas ese hombre))
Se supone que con ella tu limpiarás mi nombre
Amigo hubiese hecho los mismo por tí
eras mas que un amigo, hermano pa' mi
y ahora me dices la situación no es para que me asombre

((Ken-y))
Discúlpame ya se que eres mi amigo
me enamoré son cosas del Destino

[[Karis]]
Dime si tu
ademas de su cuerpo y su piel
puedes ver lo que
yo puede ver...
Su corazón

[[Ken-Y]]
Dime si la quieres
Igual Que Yo
(Igual Que Yo)
(Igual Que Yo)

[[Karis]]
Dime si la amas
también como yo
La Amo Yo
((La Amo Yo))

[[Karis & Ken-Y]]
Dime si la quieres
Igual Que Yo
((Igual Que Yo))
((Igua Que Yo))

[[Ken-Y]]
Dime si tu la deseas
Con El Corazón...

Yeahhh....
El Corazón
Karis & Ken-Y
Yeahhh....


And actually, I discovered that I liked a couple more... DAMMMMMIIIITTTTT hehehehehe

Is the end of the world near?
Am I going to die soon?
Maybe I'll die the day I record a bachata song...


OHHHHHH JESUUUSSCRISSSTUUUSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

I probably have...

all the inspiration in the world right now but cannot convert it into music/words for shit! I'm too rusty.
Was trying to record something this past Monday and after almost 2 hours I just gave up and deleted the Cubase project I had going. I guess I need to practice more (another thing to add to the list hossss!! hehehe).

Another thing that drives me crazy, I'm soooo bad with titles. I don't think I have a respectful song title in my "catalog".. damn.

Anyway, that's all.

Stop the madness!!!

Yes.
I'm talking to you!!
Do you think I want to know how happy you are?
Are you really that happy?
Do you think I want to know how wholesome you are?
Are you really "that" whole?
Do you think I want to know what a perfect "gal" you are?
I already know!!
But would you rather be with me than with the "wrong" crowd?
I don't think you do... and I don't think you'll know....


bla bla bla bla bla

FUCK YOU!!!!!!!



aaaahhhhhh much better!!!!!!


Thanks.

Next week...

comienza la tiraeraaaaaaa!!!!!!

I'm pumped.
After this, it will all change!
EVERYTHING!!!!
It doesn't matter... I mean, it doesn't matter to me what may or might not happen!
I'm tired of doubting every move I make, every word I say... so, I'll start from scratch next week. At least I have the go-ahead... let's see what happens. If nothing happens, well, FUCK IT!!!!

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOHHHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

Hell yeah,.. oh yeaaahh ..

I'm pumped! hehehehehe

BTW, I will get rid of this whole page soon.
I'll probably just leave the Blog.

Cheeeeck it.

Slowly but surely...

I'm getting my inspiration back.
Slowly but surely, I will be on the attack.
Slowly but surely, I will get to where I want.
You will be by my side and together dreams we'll haunt!

hehehehe :-p

What to do, what to do!

What should I do?
What?
WHHHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAATTTTTTTTTTT?!?!!?

HUHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!?!?!!

QUE JODIO...

VAGO PUNIETAAAAAA!!!

HEHEHEHEHE

Justo antes de comenzar la limpieza hogarena, me meti a la compu... y se jodio.. (eso fue a las 9:30am... son las 2pm!!!

Vago
Vago
Vago
Vago...

Oh well...

I think I'm much better...

now.

But still...

UUffffff...

El que o la que este leyendo esta mierda no sabe todo lo que tengo en mi mente... Todas las mierdas que quiero soltar, gritar, hacer, etc. Por donde empezamos? Por la continuacion de mi novela (como diria mi pana Hugo?!?)!?!?!
De verdad que no quiero escribir un carajo por que estoy tan encabronao que por mi madre haria par de cosas por las cuales me meterian preso relaaaaaaxxx... asi de encabronao estoy...

y aunque soy una persona que le gusta usar la razon antes de actuar, a veces me dan ganas de mandar la razon pal carajo y hacer lo que me dan los cojones!

Y saben que?
Que todo lo q vaya o quiera hacer tiene razones para llevarlo(as) a cabo! Tengo "motives" y no tengo "alibis"!!! hehhehehehehehehehe (por eso no hago na... no soy tan bruto ni jendio o arrebatao!)

Lo unico que puedo decir es:

- Que soy un hipocrita
- Que estoy loco por ver dientes volando y sangre brotar...
- Que quiero escuchar par de voces diciendo cosas que tenian que decir hace mas de 1 ano atras
- Que me gustaria ver sufrimiento (y no solo el mio, el cual veo todos los putos dias)
- Que quisiera desaparecer
- Que quisiera vivir otra vida
- Que quisiera que la gente descubriera lo que ES SENTIR de verdad!!! Definitivo que no saben lo que uno siente... viendo esas mierdas...
- Quisiera que la gente fuera mas considerada!

PUNIETA!!!!
Como hostia, sabiendo (probablemente ambos) lo que uno siente, hacer mierdas como esa? Punieta CONSIDERACION!!!

CONSIDERACION!!!
RESPETO!!!

Probablemente con eso defino todo.!

Tras que me han tratado como mierda, Y LO SABEN, por que no me demuestran respeto o consideracion?, No estoy hablando de gente bestia ni bruta me cago en la hostia!!!!!

Anyway, el que me conoce de verdad, sabe de lo que hablo.
El que esta leyendo esto y no me conoce, PICHEEN!!!

Quizas por eso ya no tengo ganas de trabajar ni de estar en este puto mundo, de verdad q.


check.

So now I know...

like, I REEEEAAAALLLYYYY know...
and I thought it was a bad trip... but like Kyle and Stan, I learned something today. No, really... I LEARNED!

whhoopeee?
wooohoooo?

Just got home...

yeaahhh...
Kind of tipsy... great time to talk shit!
But I don't think I will... don't have the strength ...

I just... want to know why!!!!!!

Why!?!?!?!?

And what....

What did I do so wrong?
Why can I reach my goal?
Just want one reason!!
It just... kills me ... what did he do?
What didn't I do?
etc.
etc.
etc.


FUUUUUUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!111

Does ...

thriving on people's pain, afflictions and problems make me a bad person!?
Tough.
That's the only thing that makes me happy right now... and ... sadly (for me), I'm not fucking happy!!! :-(

Check.

Si te preguntan...

This is a poem from my sister's poem compilation book Poemas sin Futuro...

Poemas sin Futuro...

Si te Preguntan

Si te preguntan
que fui en tu vida.
Dile que fui de todas
la mas querida.

Dile que fui tu consuelo
Cuando tu cielo se nublaba.
Quien lleno tu corazon
cada noche, cada madrugada.

Que fui una dama
dulce y abnegada
quien entrego su amor
sin pedir a cambio nada.

Cuentale de mis hazanas
o del poema escrito para ti
que te di toda mi vida
y te hice muy feliz

Dile que extranabas
mi cuerpo mis palabras
que morias en mis brazos
y resucitabas en mi cama

Que fui el sol, la lluvia, la marejada
pero nunca le digas...
que tu no me amabas.


YEEEAARSS ago my sister had asked me to try an create a song or melody to this poem and I had done it but never recorded it or finished it. So... since I was bored this week (was it Monday... Tuesday!?!) I decided to record something and... it shows that I haven't recorded anything since LAST YEAR!!!!!!!!!

WOW!

I almost gave up.
Nothing worked as I wanted but I did come up with a little something, something so I have the idea. The bad thing, I have to re-record. The microphone setting was at its most sensitive level (so not only you can hear my horrendous voice because of it but you can also hear an awful hiss and even crickets!! hehehehe) and my metronome stopped working at the end so I can't add Drums to that section! :-(

Anyway, here are the links for this rough demo.
I kind of like the melody I assigned to it, especially in the Bridge section. It sounds entirely different from the verses and chorus.

Si te Preguntan (instrumental)

Si te preguntan (with Vocals)


And if you like the poem, there are more like it on the book.
Buy it! hehehehehehe (shameless plug).


Talk to you guys later.

Long time...

Hello guys.

I haven't posted on this blog for quite a while.
And I have to say that a couple of interesting things have happened to me recently. I will not go into details but lets just say that distances DOES matter. I cannot be with someone who is 2 hours away doing whatever over there. I cannot stand that shit. What if I feel I want a hug? What if I feel I want a kiss? I would have to get on my car, travel a couple of hours, do whatever and then go back home... baaahhh.. screw it. I'm not up for that. I just don't like it so I'll let it go...

Simple huh?


I know the post feel rushed but I just had to get it out of my chest! ;-)


Bye,

I have not...

written in a long time because I haven't had any time to do so and because I'm lazy as fuck.

My life is progressing as always.
This doesn't mean it's good or bad... it's just... progressing! ;-)

I heard some stories today that really made me laugh and I'm pissing on myself as of this moment! hehehehehhee

Whatever... I'm kind of drunk..

check it....



P.S. I'll write something that makes more sense later...

S H I T

yep...

that's it.

My other blog...

So...

Hello Everyone.

I have created another blog that deals with everything else NOT directly related to my feelings. So there I'll be talking about movies, games, software, you know, geeky stuff that I'm kind of into. My songs will probably still be posted here but I have direct links to them on the other website.

In FACT, I added a song that I don't think anyone has listened to called:

Desperte

Anyway, just wanted to give a heads up if you don't see much activity here.
New weblog is located at:

Bienvenido Geeks

I also listed my list of movies there... and a mini review of Movie Collectorz.


Check it out, leave comments and take care.

Link for the song below....

Here's a link to the audio for the song mentioned below:

Wishing

I haven't even properly tested the "mix" but whatever... it gives me an idea at least of how I want this to sound.

Bye.

Wishing.... (New Song)

Yeah... just keep on writing shit for no reason whatsoever...


For the first time I'm the "bad" one,
made a mistake, crossed a fine line
and I don't know what to do.

Must be rusty I wrongly read,
all those signals I was fed
didn't thought all of this through.

Pre-Chorus.

And I know things wont be the same now.
And I know you will not care

Chorus.

Wishing I was
(Wishing I was)
Wishing I was
(Wishing I was)
somewhere, other than this place.

Wishing I was
(Wishing I was)
Wishing I was
(Wishing I was)
nowhere, so you can't see my face.


Either this will make or break
all that was worth it, all we shared
expectation is all I fear now.

Must be rusty I wrongly read,
misinterpreted what you sent
didn't thought all of this through.

Pre-Chorus.

And I know things wont be the same now.
And I know you will not care

Chorus

Bridge

Maybe I did this on purpose!
He is not what you deserve.
I'm not saying I'm the one though
but who am I to judge...

Chorus

Wishing I was
(Wishing I was)
Wishing I was
(Wishing I was)
oh oh oh oh oh

Wishing I was
(Wishing I was)
Wishing I was
(Wishing I was)
oh oh oh oh oh


I had a bit of fun recording this but haven't finished mixing and stuff.
I can put a preliminary link though... it's kind of like melodic punk or something so it's not really pop like most of the latest songs I've been doing... (THANK GOD!)

I'm bored...


But I finally figured that I'm bored because I'm a boring guy... Ok ... I really didn't figured this now, I think I have known this for quite a while! hehehehe So, I'm going to change that a bit... but just a bit. I'm going to start going out alone to different places and I don't just mean going to nightclubs or shit like that. I mean, going out wherever!!!

Anyway.
I'll put up a link tomorrow or this week.

Bye

After....

Two hours or so of sleep, I feel so much better!!!!


hehehehehehehehehehee


:rolleyes:

soooo.......

1:45am --> Still awake... I want to sleep but I'm not sleepy. I'm tired but I can't just close my eyes. My brain is running ahead at full speed and I just can't stop it! What should I do now? It's been so long... that I don't even know how am I supposed to feel. Should I even feel anything?
I'm wondering... were those signals misinterpreted?
Hmmmm... or am I just rusty?
Or ... what the fuck!!!!>????!?!?!?!?

I want to scream.
I want to cry.
I want to punch someone's face in.

I'm just so damned beat... I mean... I just can't seem to shake things. Haven't I learned anything on these 27 years? Am I doomed? Doomed to fail at everything? Should I even try? Should I keep trying? Trying to what?!?!? Exactly... I'm fucking lost... I just want to go to sleep for Christ sakes!!!!! WHy can't I do that?1?!?! Maybe if I gag on my tequila bottle? Maybe if I shove a hundred pills down my throat... I mean that should do it right? I would be sleeping long and hard..

DTA... don't trust anyone....

I guess that includes me?!?!?!

Where are the tattoo parlors??
'm definitely doing this...

tits, piss, fuck, cunt, cock-sucker, motherfucker, shit, farts, turds and twat! (This is from a Blink 182 song... I'm not even original in my posts...).


Bahhh...



It's been a long time since I've written some depressing shit and I guess this fulfilled my needs for now... faaaaaaaaaaaaaaack.