FELICIDADES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Feliz Año nuevo a todos.
Que este nuevo año les traiga un cojon de cosas buenas,
y que todo lo que se trazen se cumpla. Cojanlo suave y no beban mucho.

Happy New Years Everyone!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Merry Christmas...

To everyone.!!!!!!
May Santa bring you guys a lot of things but don't forget the true purpose ... the birth of Christ.. If you are reading this right now, get your ass off your seat and go watch the History Channel. They are airing a series of interesting things about Christ. It's quite captivating ... and this is coming from me!! An atheist, ... actually ... I don't even know if I believe or not! I'm confused.... I'm always confused... arggghhh.. Anyway.. Merry Christmas!!!!!!

Good start today...

Yep.
I don't feel irresponsable anymore! I found my badge!
It was in one bag I had already looked but today after breakfeast I started looking everywhere I had looked again and I found it.
What a relief!!!
I feel so great that I almost kissed my friend in front of everyone (remember her right?!? :p) but I didn't. Not yet... although I want to I don't want to push her, I'll just take my time - I guess it's better that way and I don't think she feels that strong a feeling like I do ... yet ... but I'll grow on her ... LIKE A FUNGUS!!!!!! lol. :p

Anyway, I was bored yesterday (is that rare?) but I was tired and didn't played with my DS. I'm on the verge of finishing Final Fantasy I (I think) and then after that I'll go tear up Final Fantasy II. Maybe I'll finish both games on my vacations next week.

Oh, ... I almost forgot. I'll see if I can score some pictures of the Christmas party on Friday and upload them here and create a page for them. Also, this past Saturday (again I forgot to mention it) my parents made a little party for my sister because she defended her thesis succesfully so there's a PhD in da house! I'll post some pictures of that next week!.

TTFN. Maybe I'll post something else if I'm bored!

The beginning of a Bad day...

First I want to say that I started living in Aguadilla this past Friday.
It's a quiet place where I'm staying and it's actually a cool place because there's some cool breeze at nights so I don't think I need an A/C!

Also, this past Friday was the company Christmas Party. It was kinda cool but I was bored for most of the night. The food was good, the place was good and overall it was a good party but again, it felt I needed something ... something was out of place... I don't know.

Anyway today I wake up at 7:00am and I was ready to go at 7:50 but I was missing something. Yep, I was missing my badge ... I couldn't find it. I looked everywhere but I don't remember where I put it... or maybe I lost it or threw it away? Who knows. But I hate feeling irresponsable. I mean, that's one of the things I hate the most! It's like when someone borrows ... let's say ... a movie for example, you expect to turn it back within a certain amount of estipulated time but if you don't that makes you irresponsable (right HUGO?). Well things like this mess with me good. I spent the whole trip thinking about the possible places I could have put it. Arrghhh...

Then I arrived to work (8:30 aprox.) and they made me move my car to another area because there was no parking (it seems that EVERYONE -- EVERY SHIFT) will work normal hours this week. WTF!!!!!!!

Apart from that, I guess I'm good... I guess..

I received Penfold LP (Our first taste of escape) and what a beautiful cd it is.
It is 200% depressive... just how I like it!
Now why can't I make songs like this?!?
Now I feel incompetent!
Dammit... maybe the afternoon will be better?!?!? I hope.

Was listening to

the old Empire Records Soundtrack and remembered these words:

"In this world, there are nothing but possibilities."

Yep... so true!

This one is in Spanish.....

Bueno... aqui les cuento.
Habia estado medio ansioso estos ultimos dias
y una de las razones era por pendejo!!
Pues es que soy pendejo... anyway, lo que pasa es que ya hace un mes
me di cuenta que hay una mujer aqui que me vuelve loco! Te digo, con solo escucharla
reirse me basta. A veces voy a su cubiculo solo para hacerla reir y verla.
Y pues estuve peleando conmigo a ver si la invitaba a salir y whatnot y el dia que me decidi a salir con ella me di cuenta que no tenia el numero de ella (pero de otra que se llama igual -- duh!! que huevo!!!!!). So, le pedi el numero pero despues no me atrevi a llamarla. Esa mierda siguio creciendo en mi hasta que ya no podia aguantar y tenia que decirle algo...
Pues le dije todo ... y cuando digo todo es todo lo que sentia super cabron! Te digo que no se de donde saque las bolas para hacer eso pues hace muuuucho tiempo que no me sentia asi y que no hacia eso. Hace como 4 años que no sentia algo tan fuerte. La cosa es que ella no es una super reina pero la encuentro perfecta! Es acaso amor!?!?! Si lo es, entonces estoy bien jodido!
Hable con ella bien cabron y pues no le dije que queria estar con ella (apenas la conozco) pero le dije que queria acercarme mas y que si ella me daba la oportunidad pues chillin. Pero por el momento solo habra amistad. Ella no ha tenido mucha suerte tampoco con los hombres (es que yo digo que los homobres son unos perros) y yo se que ella querra coger las cosas con calma... y sabes que? Yo tambien. Te digo que vale la pena. Creo que estoy muy apendejado ... pero ... no se. Hace cuatro años senti lo mismo y sali jodío por pendejo. Cai en depre y me colgué como un cabron en todas las clases. Solo espero que no pase lo mismo en este try por que sino definitivamente mandare pal carajo a el amor y borro todas mis canciones y todo lo que he escrito sobre el tema.

Anyway, eso era lo que me tenia ansioso. Pero ya lo solte. Hable con ella, todo esta chillin. Eramos panas, creo que podremos ser amigos y si en algunos meses o quien sabe mas formalizamos algo, pues perfecto.

En otras noticias, ya estoy casi muda'o pero todavia no me voy. Me voy el sabado o algo asi y me mudo completo ese dia. Ya fue ayer a limpiar el apt. y a acomodar par de cosas.

En el trabajo me tienen haciendo algo medio aburrido pero ... eso es hasta que lleguen mas cosas que hacer para mi!

Eso es todo por el momento.
Gracias por leer mi ensayo!

I don't believe this....

I actually had the balls today to do what I wanted to do!!!!! In the past blog I talked about doubt, insecurities, choices, well ... I made one today. I don't know how it will turn out but at least that will not be on my mind too much now! I still don't believe what I did ... I will leave you with the suspense...

Oh, another shit happened!!
Hey Monchichi... Pedro Vasquez wants to talk with me. I think he is going to offer me Luis's job! I think Luis is moving to another Department or something and Pedro is looking for someone to be the Systems Admin... How about that?!?!! That's fucked up. I'll see if I meet with him today and talk... at least that's what Zorivi said on the phone. Anyway I'll see what's up but I will probably (most likely) not take it. But will recommend Ilde or Hugo (although I doubt Hugo will take this).

We'll see..

Talk to youse later! :p

This has been on my mind...

for a month and a half (almost 2).

"Doubt is a pain too lonely to know that faith is his twin brother."

I even made a song and shit that deals with this.
Yep!!! I'm officially sick! :(

Cleaning

Spent like 5 hours yesterday cleaning the current apartment I live in. FIVE HOURS!!!!!. And still I believe it's dirty. I have to leave it clean when I go so ... on Saturday (hopefully my last day there) I will just need to clean very lightly. But what's the worst thing? That I will probably end up taking longer in cleaning the new apartment!!! That SHOULD suck!

This week-end I spent most of the time playing with my GameBoy. Bought Final Fantasy I and II recently and I'm addicted once again. Ahhh... RPG BLISS!!!!

I haven't checked my emails and I'm thinking that I must have like 400 messages (all of the email accounts combined) and I guess that about 350 is SPAM. I hate SPAM... (both the "meat" and unsolicited messages.).

I gotta go now ... do like I'm working.! :p

Here I Go.....

and up I went to Aguadilla. So now I have the keys
of my new apartment. It looks quite good (it's definitely the best-looking
apartment I've had all of these pasts years), the owner was painting and
organizing a few things. I went there and stored some things I had in my car
(for like 2 years I've had books and stuff I didn't wanted to throw out but there was never any space in my home nor my apartment to put it ... now I have space! ;)).
I'll see if this weekend I move the bed and some stuff. Probably by the middle of December I'll be living in Aguadilla.

I've been feeling anxious for these past two weeks and I still don't know why!!!
I'll probably need to talk to my psychologist (my sister :p) and look into this... it SUCKS.! Bye

Have you ever felt...

sad and happy at the same time?
Yeah, I get that a lot.
Symptoms of an asshole? Don't know...

that's all.