Two posts in one day... personal record?!?!?

Wow!!
My heart is beating fast, I can't barely breathe... I just read something so lame and selfish that I cannot believe someone so beautiful and intelligent could have ever written it.

Wow!!
I don't even know what to say.

It seems...

that my "surrogate" mother is doing fine.
She is already home and feeling alright, just talked to her
yesterday. Now, my real mother had an operation on Tuesday for her
"bum" knees. Damn... I better bring some "nietos (as)" to these gals before
they get even more fucked!!! ;-)

Today, I don't know if I have my Kung Fu exam.
If I do, I hope they put me to fight!
I feel like I need someone to kick my ass!

This weekend... I plan on doing shit.
Well, actually, my apartment is a mess.
I plan to wash all the windows, screens, floors, etc.
I guess that if I start early I could be finish by 1pm !!!! :-p

So, I received my "upgraded" paycheck last week (or the one before that...
I don't even remember).

I haven't bought anything for myself yet. Have spent some in gasoline for the car, food from the supermarket, bills, etc. but have not spent a penny for myself.
Maybe this weekend I'll drive to Mayaguez or somewhere and spend my hard-earned dollars... ok ok ... maybe not HARD-EARNED but just earned. ;-)

Haven't been drinking for a while, and my uncle came from the US. This guy is a heavy drinker since he was a teenager... almost a bum! ;-) But was a guitar God and he has such a natural second voice that gives you chills. In fact, he played and sang with big P.R. bohemia stars I believe (my dad knows the stories). Anyway, I hope to spend some time with him in my next visit to Guayama, just for the heck of it. Who knows, maybe I end up like him! lol ... NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOT!!

Don't know what else to say so ... if anyone is reading this, just post something, anything, I don't care if it is stupid, or if you flame me, etc. I just want to read
stupid replies... in fact, I'll browse the internet looking for stupid blogs or something and will post them here! lol

Bye.

So it gets worse....

Damn it!
Damn it all to hell (like Mr. Garrison from South Park would say).

So yesterday I received I call from my mom:

"Gelito, apunta este numero de Carmin pa que la llames manana!"

In my mind:

"Who the hell is Carmin?!?!?!"

Then she goes off saying that my mother (my other one) is in intensive
care in the hospital in Guayama but that she is stable and to call my sister
for more information today... this sucks. Still don't know if I should go home
after this... I guess I'll decide after I make the call.

This is definitely ri-goddamned-diculous, this year sucks... 2006 should be
completely erased ...

Just when I was going to throw everything away.... hehehehe yeah.

Stop feeling sorry for your damn self.... BITCH!!!

Yeah...
Title says it all I think.
Do I have to say more?
Naaaaahhh fuck it.

The sound...

Everything feels dull when you're not around,
I feel just so numb thinking of these things out loud.
All that I lost, I still haven't found,
So I'll still be missing, ... will not make a sound.

Too bad... there's no undo button here,
and with my head down, looking at worms in the ground,
feeling like one, walking like one, I feel the need, I want you near
but I guess it's a sure thing, I wont hear a sound...

I'm deaf, I'm dumb, I'm lost... scratch that I lost.
So close and yet so far,
clinging to loneliness, clinging to nothing at all.
Staring at my wall,
hearing the crickets, hearing coquies,
hearing the leaves as the wind with complete disregard for them make their touch.
They are not making a sound, it's all in my head, just like her... don't like this much.

Still I look at the bright side, wait, is there any?
Still I'm trying to forget...
And yes... all of it I regret..
There's nothing I can do now,
all I can do is miss,
perfection in my eyes
and I know I'll hear somehow,
that sound I use to hear,
though not directed at me... one of my biggest fears.

I guess I will be pleased, actually, I guess I wont.
I want to run away from this fucking town.
I want to crawl away from my fucking skin.
too bad that wont do, and I'll end up in the ground
like those fucking little worms, without hearing that sound
that was close to my heart, made me feel alive, it wont be around.

I think I just bought the Record of the Year....

I knew this music CD was going to be good, but no... it is AWESOME!!

Park - Building a better ___(noun)______

Even from the title of the disc, you know you will expect something great.
The songs are neatly arranged, Ladd lyrics are awesome and it definitely tops
their last cd "It wont snow where you're going". I'm currently in love
with Track number 5 titled: "A message". It has everything!
Harmony -- check
Good lyrics -- check
Good vocals -- check
Good background vocals -- check
Ass-kicking guitar licks -- check
Poppy/Catchy sound -- check
I just love it.

I got South Park season 8 this weekend and in a couple of minutes I'm going out to buy the Second Season of Lost... I guess I'll be pretty busy these upcoming weeks!
I'm feeling like a geek again. Playing PS2 and DS, watching movies, going to Kung Fu, playing basketball, etc. All that is missing: PC Addiction but I don't see this coming.

Anyway, this is "A message" by Park:


Park - A message

Wake up blondie
This is your message
You've struck deep what most find hard to reach
Well god damnit you warned me
pleading don't get so involved
I'll do what's best and slowly dissolve

I'd hold the sun up just to wake beside you
Imagine what you could see, if you just let yourself like me
Forget the incidents, thoughtless and abusing
Imagine what you could see, if you just let yourself like me

Don't be sorry
You're less enticing
You've just lost what most find hard to keep
I'll take two of the white ones
Forget what I said last month
I'll spare myself, the embarrassment

I'd hold the sun up just to wake beside you
Imagine what you could see, if you just let yourself like me
Forget the incidents, thoughtless and abusing
Imagine what you could see, if you just let yourself like me

Cause I do
I was foolish to have thought I could catch you
Stupid to have ever liked you
But your sly little smile
Curved the comforts I used to find
Drag me inside
I'm yours to use tonight (I'm yours to use tonight)
I'm yours to use tonight

I'd hold the sun up just to wake beside you
Imagine what you would see, if you just let yourself like me
Cause I do
Cause I do
I was foolish to have thought I could catch you
Stupid to have ever liked you
But I do
But I do

Couple of songs....

Hello again.

Just a couple of songs I uploaded.
First off is:

I kind of Hate You: This song I made in April I believe. I was bored. It's sort of generic pop-punk crap with simple repeating lyrics just for fun.

Cae todo en Ti:
This one I made like a month ago. Felt like writting something about someone overcoming his/her doubts, fears.

"Y espero que asi sea,
las dudas a la mar.
No esperare un minuto
pues solo te quiero amar...

Y todo queda en ti,
solo me toca esperar"

Now the ball is in their park... it's their turn.
Also, I just wanted to kind of show off since I was using a chord progression I had never used nor recorded and me like it a lot!

Finally,

Dolera (instrumental) : This is still in its early stages. Lyrics are coming up but I just seem so confused that I don't even know if what I'm writing makes sense or is in context with the music. I'm placing heavy use on the delay effect here. Right now vocals are complete but not in this version, still need to tweak the damn lyrics... maybe I will never even finish this since I just don't seem to be thinking straight lately...

Anyway, that's all.
Just an mp3 update.

You can find all of these (except Dolera) in the music page also.

Have a great and long weekend (Labor Day!!)
Bye