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what do I want?
what do I reaaally want?

That's a question that has been surfacing a few times these past few weeks. What do I want? I'm 27 and I still don't know what I want. I just figured that I no longer have a goal, nor am I inspired to reach something, anything. And this scares me to the point that I feel that there's nothing left for me to do in this world, on this life... there's nothing out there worth fighting for, there's nothing out there worth crying for, there's nothing out there worth living for but there's nothing out there worth dying for either! hehehe shit... I love these brain shitstorms...

DTA.... but I'm curious...

Ok...
So I didn't want to mention any of this but since I've neglected this blog for quite some time I'm going to post it.

DTA, stands for Don't Trust Anyone!
Three letters that will hopefully be tattooed on my body someday.

I've been let down quite a few times and recently information was given to me which actually "harmed" me more that I could have anticipated. I wont go into any details but let's just say that I was let down again and even though I try to be a good guy, a good friend, etc. everything ends up backfiring and the people that you trust fuck you over. And, hey!, it's Ok! Shit happens... (to me). :-p

Why do I bring this up?
Well, I've been getting to know someone and me likeeeey!!! lol (and BTW, I'm not talking about love or a relationship, etc. I'm saying that I like because I feel like I can express myself however the fuck I want... in a way I feel comfortable)

Thing is that I heard the following:

h: "you are important to me!"

I was dumbfounded, speechless, shocked.
WTF did I just heard?!?!?
I haven't heard anything like this in quite a while, and the last time I heard this it didn't end up well! hehehehe So.... my brain starts processing and amidst WTFs, what the hell happened, etc. etc. I stumble upon those 3 letters:

DTA

Why should I trust the words of someone I barely know when the people I did "knew" for a long time were fucking me over?
Why should I trust the words of someone that barely knows me?
Why should I trust, period?!?!

I have to say, it felt awesome hearing those words coming from her, and I'm not ashamed to say that I was fucking flattered BUT, why? Why did she say that? Now I'm questioning what the heck did I do or say... how did I opened the door for this to happen? I really don't know. Maybe I'm reading this the wrong way. Who knows? All I know that now I'm confused BUT curious!!!!!

Now I "just want to feeeed my curiosityyyyyyy" :-p

I wont say anything to her or do anything I might later regret. I will just let time go by. Who knows, maybe I can start trusting again....






maybe....

Too much work...

Hey guys/gals.

Haven't updated this in a while because I've been swamped with work. Doing a lot of things but at the same time this is good, since it keeps me busy and entertained... and speaking of entertained, for those who don't know I bought Guitar Hero III for the Wii. Great game, challenging and best of all, fun. The soundtrack kicks ass.

And speaking of songs, I haven't recorded anything new but have a couple of ideas. I figured I use my piano again for the next song... Pa joder.


Well, this will be a short one.
See you guys later.
bye.