and it is not pretty.
Maybe that is why from the outset I did not want to get my feelings involved.
But you forced me ... and I wanted you to force me because deep down I felt
I would do good by you and in a way I still do.
I asked a couple of times what did you wanted from me and never did I get
a straight answer as if: "Right now I feel comfortable" would make me feel better.
It actually sent my mind on a field trip ... those words...
"Right now" meant trouble and guess what ... they were.
Right now I don't even know what to do.
I don't know how to look at you without thinking:
"Am I wasting my time?"
"Am I letting you waste my time?"
"Do you REALLY feel as you say?"
"Can we make it work out before you finally come out and say: Sorry, I can't deal with this!?"
"Can I go one step back with you and feel comfortable?"
For these I don't have the answers.
Maybe it wont be too long before I know them though.
Just spare me ... have mercy ... and if you want to let go, LET GO.
Whatever the decision is, I have to live with it but in a way, so do you.
3 comments:
Congratulations!
Now your page is very popular among your co-workers. At least, nobody knows who is the person that you mention in your last message.
It is not pretty, but we are here to be ugly with you...
Thanks! lol
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