So ... I'm feeling kind of down right now.
Hearsay, phone call, shit ... I heard ... and it sucks.
How come my efforts turn into shit.
Not one but ALL OF THEM.
Is it luck?
Is it me?
Is it something else?
....
...
Why lie? Just say what you have in mind.
You think it's going to hurt?
It will hurt even more if I figure out your lies ... but you
were busy thinking only who to fuck and I'm not on that list.
Am I not pretty enough?
Am I not cool enough?
Am I not sincere enough?
Did I scare you by saying what I said?
Did I make you run away by simply saying the truth?
Maybe you did not liked my serious side (and yes I have one)
and you just pushed me away (as if I would refuse anything you offer).
If you wanted to have fun, I would have been there for you.
If you wanted to get fucked, I would have complied like no one else.
But still I'm here in pain with no offers whatsoever thinking
who you are fucking and wishing I was him! .. pathetic isn't it?
And I will feel rejected even if you have a good excuse!
You could have told me anything! I was counting on that!
And I'm still here mad to the point ... I want to cry ... I want to scream.
Don't want to try no more ... don't want anything now.
Why didn't you just told me you didn't want anything with me?
Fuck it .. say: "I just don't like you!"
It would have been better! Of course I was going to be thinking:
Am I not good enough?
Am I not pretty enough?
Am I not sincere enough?
But I wouldn't feel as bad as I do right now.
I can fucking assure you that no one can give you what I'm offering
that no one feels even a little percent of what I feel for you.
But even if I told you all this you probably would be thinking of
who you are going to fuck and I am not on that list and probably never will!
So ... do you understand what you have just done?
Do you even fucking care?
I don't think you do!
I don't think you ... ever did!
I don't think no more ... don't want to think no more ... fucking 10,000 questions!
Fuck this that I feel.
Fuck the way I am, don't want to be myself but can't be anything else... OH
the FUCKING IRONY of it all...
I have shed my first tear for you .. it will be the last .. don't expect more ..
you are definitely NOT! worth my love ... you fucked up whore.!
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A Wilhelm Scream : => "Apologize to who I touch, I could have ruined you too but I was beaten to the punch. Hug what? Why should I care who you go fuck? "
3 comments:
Wow that's some pretty fucked up shit right there.... I don't know the background of the story but from reading your post I really feel sorry for the one that did this to you, anyway need someone to talk to I'm here for you man (this sounds kinda a gay but fuck it :-P), I also have a serious side. Gonna be on the west this weekeng, I'll probably call you or something drop by your apartment with some beers and pizza ^_^, that's if you staying in you apartment this weekend. It's been a long time since I have wrtiten something in your blog, ,that's because I don't have internet right now (I'm typing this from the classroom of my Client/Server architecture class... fuck he said that there is an exam in like 2 weeks sheeeeeeeiiiiiittttt :-/). Anyway sorry to hear things haven't gone that well for you, at least you got a good raise :-). BTW the weeding is going again for the same date, talk to you later. Peace out BEEEEEIIIIIIIATCH!!!!.
Cherri, si tu no fueras TAN PERRA yo no me haria el gay cuando estuvieras presente.
Si no recurriera a este papel y acto de pateria mia hace tiempo te hubieras ido con los panchos.
And Once you go gelocks .. you never go back! :p
estoy de acuerdo con el suicida....esa Cherri se ve que es senda PERRA!!!!!!!
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