....

My head hurts, it thinks so many things all at once
without me even making an effort.
My eyes burn, so many tears rolling down without reason
. No real reasons...
Why even try to hold on for so long,
when you know in your heart that giving up is your best option!?
Don't you just wonder a lot of things happens because
you want them to? Like, I don't know, things
you don't want to, mistakes you wouldn't like
to make but still you make them!?
Do you inflict pain on yourself?
I'm talking about emotional pain and not
physical pain. Did you know that most
people are capable of inflicting infinite
amount of emotional pain without even noticing?
I do ... and I do notice.
Why hold onto this pain so bitter-sweet?
Did I just answered this?
If you only knew the truth about this,
maybe you'll be singing a different tune. Maybe.
But Maybe is just like the word yet, with a couple
of different interpretations.
Maybe this, MAybe that... I LOVE the word maybe.
Definitely one of my favorite words alongside Puñeta!.
It's so ambiguous! It's just like art.
Do I like art?
I think so ... again with that word!!!!

I'm actually tired of thinking!
It's what has gotten me here in the first place!
Look, I'm not working just writing this piece of
shit.
It's there actually a way or some method that you
can follow to actually stop thinking?
Or is thinking just like breathing?
It just comes naturally right?
Because even if you try to spend 5 minutes
trying NOT to think, you are fucked because
you are already THINKING NOT TO THINK!
That's just so fucking weird... isn't it?